what a night

It's 02:21h (am), just like every night, my daughter always cry in her sleep not because of a bad dream or anything but because of her skin asthma. It irritates her. And it's itchy that she won't stop scratching until it bleeds.

I usually find my self irritated too 'cause my husband and I never did have a good night sleep in the fast few months or I guess almost a year perhaps because of this reason. This is not an exageration. All I want to experience at this moment is a long, good, and restful night with no crying.

But you see we can make our life easier. But I guess, it is our choice not to.

A year and a half before, we discovered a good medicine that we can use for her skin asthma. Her dermatologist prescribed it, but with caution that it can only be used in a little amount once a day, applying it to her lesion. We already tried it. And just after a day, the result was so incredible. We couldn't hardly believe ourselves that we let ourselves went through some restless night, (just like this night and the night before that), and not knowing that there's an ointment such as this. And it really worked. After a week, the skin asthma was gone. Her skin start to heal. And we are at peace once again.

We are so happy that at last we found a medicine that will ease her pain and give us a calming night for the three of us. Until her pediatrician restrain us from using it because of the steriod content.

So now we're back to scratching, tapping, creme for rashes, salt water etc... and some relieves her pain for a moment but of course, it will not last like that medicine that we thought was an answer to our prayer.

But it's fine with us. It's much better to know that we haven't got a good night sleep because of my daughter's crying than to think we are very tranquil yet knowing we are introducing a medicine with steriod content to our daughter.

One friend of ours (her son also had the same problem but she stick with that same kind of medicine) asked, "are you not ashamed when people asked you why is your daughter's skin like that." My husband told her, "I rather be ashamed knowing that steriod helps my daughter's skin to be beautiful than to see her like that."

"Good come back answer, honey!"

Day 1 of her diary

Today, after waking up so late 'cause she slept late last night at 00:10h (cause she watch Indiana Jones 1-3 with me), my daughter started her day with a breakfast that she didn't finished.

Notice that as she grew older her apetite seems to be starting to be like having French-eating-pattern. She eats less and less rice and more of the veggies which is good. But the quantity is so less that I'm starting to worry if it is the one causing her height deficiency. But looking at her friends from school and the way they eat, I guess it is a French style of living.

Today, she learns how to snap her finger. Yesterday, she saw me snapping my fingers to a music from the film "Anastasia." And she wanted me to teach her. And I did. And after few try, she gave up but this afternoon at 15:28h, she was able to do it by herself. And she was almost ecstatic about it. Oh, little kids! She found it really amusing and that she was so proud of herself that she learn how to do it.

Anyway, this afternoon will be going to Les Halles just to develop pictures from our recent trip and my cousin's as well. Will keep you update about her progress in other areas when I find the time.

it's about a little girl

So just as significant as she was born, my daughter's days growing up is as significant as it is. She was able to do a lot of things children of older age can do. But her height makes little progress. At 6 months, she can humm to a music but still she looks like 3 months old.

At an early age, she showed signs that she'll be a left handed and that was something I'm preparing myself for 'cause I am a right hand dominant person. Although my husband is left handed, though I really can't rely on him to teach her how to write 'cause he himself can't read what he wrote before because of bad penmanship. It is something we always laugh about. :) So now I'm starting to experience how it is to use my left hand.

She was able to memorize her favorite book, "are you my mother," at an early age of 2 and a half years old. I was able to record it first on my mobile, on the 4th of January 2004. It always brings happy memories for both me and her.

Well, these are just brief background of who she is and I hope I can fill it in with her new progress now that she's 4 years, 2 months and 7 days old.

something to write

It's been a lifetime since I last posted something to write here. Reason? Well, I found another blog hosting site. But now after 11 months of not writing, I finally find something to tell here.

I will now use this as my daughter's diary. You see, since birth I kept a diary for her. I write down her progress in her developmental skills. And significant experieces that I want her to remember when she grows up. But in year 2004, I just simply stop writing in that diary. I think I lost the zest to write about anything. Be it about my life or other's life that surrounds me.

Anyway, so today, I'll start once again. My eldest daughter (since I only have one at the moment) is 4 years old and 2 months and 6 days to be exact. She was born in the month of June. She was born pre-maturely (about 7 months and 2 days) with thick dark hair and she was so small she can fit into a small size shoe box.

I had 4 days of labor to be exact, at first my mom wouldn't believe me that I'll be having her since, she said it was too early. But there she is, kicking inside my tummy wanting to get out. I never thought that I will have her as early as 7 months. It is a very significant date for all of us 'cause you see, my mother-in-law was also in the hospital at that time. And then after hours and hours of labor, I gave birth to my daughter but we didn't knew then that two minutes before my daughter saw the world, her grandmother already passed away.