what a night

It's 02:21h (am), just like every night, my daughter always cry in her sleep not because of a bad dream or anything but because of her skin asthma. It irritates her. And it's itchy that she won't stop scratching until it bleeds.

I usually find my self irritated too 'cause my husband and I never did have a good night sleep in the fast few months or I guess almost a year perhaps because of this reason. This is not an exageration. All I want to experience at this moment is a long, good, and restful night with no crying.

But you see we can make our life easier. But I guess, it is our choice not to.

A year and a half before, we discovered a good medicine that we can use for her skin asthma. Her dermatologist prescribed it, but with caution that it can only be used in a little amount once a day, applying it to her lesion. We already tried it. And just after a day, the result was so incredible. We couldn't hardly believe ourselves that we let ourselves went through some restless night, (just like this night and the night before that), and not knowing that there's an ointment such as this. And it really worked. After a week, the skin asthma was gone. Her skin start to heal. And we are at peace once again.

We are so happy that at last we found a medicine that will ease her pain and give us a calming night for the three of us. Until her pediatrician restrain us from using it because of the steriod content.

So now we're back to scratching, tapping, creme for rashes, salt water etc... and some relieves her pain for a moment but of course, it will not last like that medicine that we thought was an answer to our prayer.

But it's fine with us. It's much better to know that we haven't got a good night sleep because of my daughter's crying than to think we are very tranquil yet knowing we are introducing a medicine with steriod content to our daughter.

One friend of ours (her son also had the same problem but she stick with that same kind of medicine) asked, "are you not ashamed when people asked you why is your daughter's skin like that." My husband told her, "I rather be ashamed knowing that steriod helps my daughter's skin to be beautiful than to see her like that."

"Good come back answer, honey!"