12the birthday

She turned 12 today. My eldest daughter who was once a little girl sitting on my lap is no longer little anymore. The one who was once playing with dolls, pretends to be a princess and sing and dance with all her heart out, haven't been doing these for awhile now. The one who tell stories about the whole day that she spent at school in all details is now responding "it's OK," if I asked if her day at school went well. Everything is changing.

She is growing up and so fast. She's now creating a world of her own. Being able to hide secrets and other stuff. Spending more time listening to music or watching TV. Spending more time in her room and alone.

How time flies so fast, it felt like it slipped through my fingers without even knowing it. And made me wonder, if I was a good mother to her.

I know sometimes all the things I did for her is not enough, but all the things I did, I did it with all my heart just for her.

I know sometimes she gets jealous of her two siblings. Citing sometimes that I spend too much time with them and a little for her. But I hope she realize that the love I have for her will not change even if I will have less and less time for her as her youngest sibling is sickly. In her facebook, I wrote these words so that she'll remember that no one can replace her in our hearts.

"You were born two months in advanced, learned to walk and talk in phrases before your first birthday, learned to memorize the entire book of P.D. Eastman's "Are you my mother" at one and a half, were writing by two and were already reading books in English and French by three. That's how special you are. But even without all of these, you will always be special to your papa's and mama's heart. You were and will always be our first LOVE. Happy 12th birthday!!""